When I had my mammogram yesterday the technician told me that the results would be available on my “My Health” app yesterday or today. I’m one of those folks that needs to know right away, so I began checking my app as soon as I returned home from the testing (less than half an hour after completion).
I know, it probably sounds crazy, but I don’t have patience for waiting. I hate waiting in line at the store, I hate waiting for phone calls, texts, or emails. I just hate waiting. This is probably one of he biggest strains in my marriage. If I want or need something it should happen now, not days or weeks later.
As I wait I feel the tension in my muscles growing. I know what my husband would say … if we were communicating, “In the health field no news is good news.” I know this, over the past fourteen years I’ve heard it countless times, but it doesn’t make my need for urgent response time lessen one bit.
I’m trying to be patient, to find other things to do, but the wait seems endless, and I don’t like it one bit. I’ve even taken the time to gather my GoFundMe money and purchase my smart pen, but even that has done nothing for letting go of the stress of waiting for results. It might have even made matters worse as I have a 5 to 7 day wait time for delivery.
With all that has been happening in my life, I wonder if just curling up under the covers and having a good cry would help release some of the stress, but I can’t find the time to do that. I guess I should just keep plugging away, moving forward, and spend more time protecting myself from the insanity of waiting.