Thinking

I’ve been thinking really hard about some tough decisions. I’m tired of being unhappy, tired of fighting when I have no fight left to give. I’m tired of hearing through the grapevine about things that I should know first hand, or that I would prefer not to know.

My life is in turmoil, and I sort of have control over that. Dare I say that I’m letting myself down, and along the way disappointing those that I love most.

Where do I begin? Where is this road going to take me? What have I got to lose? So many questions that only I can answer, but often times I’m afraid of the answers that are within me.

As I try to find my authentic self I’ve come to realize that the one that professes love for me secretly hates me, the real me. What’s left to this life? Dare I step out?

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