I’ve been thinking really hard about some tough decisions. I’m tired of being unhappy, tired of fighting when I have no fight left to give. I’m tired of hearing through the grapevine about things that I should know first hand, or that I would prefer not to know.
My life is in turmoil, and I sort of have control over that. Dare I say that I’m letting myself down, and along the way disappointing those that I love most.
Where do I begin? Where is this road going to take me? What have I got to lose? So many questions that only I can answer, but often times I’m afraid of the answers that are within me.
As I try to find my authentic self I’ve come to realize that the one that professes love for me secretly hates me, the real me. What’s left to this life? Dare I step out?